dunno what to do

this is the constant dilemma-no plan. mostly i just wanna pick up my check and then hop on the LIRR and head out towards copiague. id haveta do laundry first cause every good drifter needs clean underwear. the dilemma is this: id feel ungrateful. id feel like i was ditching my brother and his girlfriend but the truth is i dont wanna drive in a car upstate for three hours with people i dont and barely know. i dont wanna deal with cigarette smoke i dont wanna deal with interrogation i dont wanna deal with shit. i just wanna throw on my walkman and go-that simple. maybe i call my bro and let him know. i want the adventure of aloneness. i wanna work on my book and i wanna see copiague again. okay ill make a few calls and get a plan going. sweet.